Posted By Goddess on April 13, 2009

I watched this video - which also happens to be a T-Mobile commercial…and cried.

There is something about it that makes me get choked up.

The last couple of days I’ve been shedding a lot of tears.  You can blame it on “Aunt Flow” if you want, but it’s more than that.

I feel alive with ideas, yet burdened by them at the same time.  How can I possibly make this body do that many things?

I am inspired with all the talented people out there.  Each blog I visit lets me peek into another magical world.  I actually found this video on a blog that had me crackling with inspiration already.

It all started with me just looking at various blog layouts - but that is dangerous work for me.  When I like the layout, I linger.  When I linger I get distracted from the task at hand.

Some days I have to simply walk away from the computer, even though some of my art lies there.  Some of my undone tasks are dangling there.  But, it’s good for me to step away and focus on another aspect of work at times.  Today, I am cleaning the studio up.  Yes, it was recently cleaned, quite well I might add, but it’s a tad messy now.  Nothing like before - before it wasn’t even organized, right now it’s just needing a tidy-up.  So that will be my chore for the day.  To tidy, so I may then get some work completed.

The level to which I have been distracted by tangential indulgences this past week are unsurpassed so far this year.  I have been wholly indulgent in my path meanderings.  Facebook also encourages such behavior to a degree at which might be frightening if I had to actually leave my home for a daily job.  Yesterday I was totally obsessed with finding out if I could buy local eggs that looked like the eggs I had gotten from a particular farm a couple of years ago and much like an entry here on Maya*Made.  Of course, it being Sunday and a holiday to boot, I couldn’t find out squat.  So, today I made did a little research and made a phone call and later this week I’ll hopefully have some lovely, colorful and local eggs.

Currently I am preparing Body Politics for Artomatic.  That will be keeping me occupied for weeks to come.  After Artomatic opens, I will be ready for more indulgent artful activities.  I’ve come up with several ideas that I’m excited to get started on right away, so maybe I will get started on them in small ways - to have some works-in-progress that I can come back to and finish.

One thing is for certain - I am very glad to be past many of my self-improvement techniques and exercises and onto who I am.  I know who I am.  I have worked past many obstacles and have arrived at my creative place. And even in times of uncertainty and when despair rears its ugly head from time to time, I have great sources of support that I have cultivated.  Great friends.  Great family.  Great loves.  I hope I can always be as wonderful and supportive as my friends have been to me.

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