admin | February 28, 2006
I might start putting some of my dreams in here. Sometimes they are so vivid and I record them.
I have a history of nightmares. I used to have at least four night terrors a week near the end of my pregnancy with Jade. Terrors are like bad dreams only you don't fully [...]
admin | February 28, 2006
I don?t know what to wish for sometimes.
I don?t know if I should wish to be well and strong enough to handle things or for things that need handling to stop happening to me.
Sometimes I wish I just wouldn't wake up in the morning and then I wouldn't have to deal with any of it.
admin | February 28, 2006
After writing the Mothers and Daughters blog yesterday it occured to me that it would be wrong to only complain about the bad things I remember about my parents, since that is what I get bothered about with them. I of course remember the good things, but don?t always speak of them because all [...]
admin | February 27, 2006
It?s not as though I need to be reminded of the responsibilities upon me, raising girls.
Since I am immobilized by my womanly cycle I made good use of the time and watch chick movies yesterday. I watched ?The Joy Luck Club? and ?Mona Lisa Smile? which seemed to have a similar feel to [...]
admin | February 25, 2006
Excerpt from "Sorry" by Our Lady Peace
Today is tasting the honey
Today's the strike of a match
Today's the lines in the pavement
Helping us to find our way back
Today's the crosses we carry
Today's the strength that we need
Today's the hand of an angel
You were [...]
admin | February 25, 2006
SPIDERS!
admin | February 24, 2006
I’m writing to you.
You know who you are.
Doing this thing - it is not easy.
Being strong is required from the start…not at some point half way through. Or at some point when you are ready – at the expense of what I have wrought these many years.
I have worked hard. I have changed – but [...]
admin | February 24, 2006
Robert - I heard this song tonight - you are sleeping right now. There are so many lights on in the house and the cat is asleep on top of my monitor.
I ate a Lean Cuisine. It?s easier than cooking actual food, I guess.
When I listen to songs like this, I like my [...]
admin | February 23, 2006
Julie
by David Bowie
Julie
Oh
And I know
Like a mirror, sunday morning
When the dark clouds hung above
I saw you kneeling ’neath a garden
I saw the grim and stood above
What kind of meaning in a gun shot
It doesn’t matter what they [...]
admin | February 23, 2006
Will ain't feelin' none too good. (That's there is SMIB talk). Amber ain't feelin' none too good no-how neither.
Robert's on his way home - no gym tonight he's got a super bad headache - and true to our connection - I had just gotten back from the drugstore and bought him headache pills [...]
admin | February 21, 2006
Our Trip To Frederick
(Robert took lots of door pix while we were there. I think we'll do a series.)
I had the BEST weekend in Frederick. We stayed at a B&B - Hill House - and went shopping, walking and took photos - many of them to use in my art (and maybe his [...]
admin | February 17, 2006
I want to say something:
Mmmmm-ohhhhhhhh-KA
J-ahhhhhhhhh-VA
mmmmm that's good decaf.
I had a great Valentines day (mostly). I have some photos from the American Visionary Art Museum with Will - me and my Postsecrets - it was a perfect Valentines thing for us to do and Robert got me goodies - chocolate, love fortune cookies, roses and [...]
admin | February 16, 2006
I'm telling you the accuracy of these things FREAK ME OUT sometimes.
Peace!
Horoscope for: Thursday, February 16, 2006
Yesterday | TODAY | Tomorrow
Heather,
Compassion is one of your greatest strengths and now it's time to express this highest form of love. You'll need to move carefully, however, for [...]
admin | February 16, 2006
O MY GOOOD the Moka Java coffee Will bought me at Trader Joes last night is ground and in the coffee maker and it smells SO FUCKING GOOD!!!!
I miss coffee SO MUCH sometimes, it seems like maybe this one will have the flavor kick I crave without the caffeine that makes me all wiggy.
peace, love [...]
admin | February 14, 2006
I just wanted to send out a little love to everybody on this Valentine's Day.
Here are a few things to make it a good one - PEACE and LOVE!
My friend Dee throws those "Slumber Parties" and I've ordered a few things from her to keep things fun and it's a great thing to do for [...]
admin | February 13, 2006
Everything old is new again, as Robert and I were discussing the way something you wrote or heard long ago can have new resonance. That was the case for this blog I wrote back in 2002.
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You can tell your lover that something they desire to do will bother you.
You can communicate your feelings with [...]
admin | February 10, 2006
No major wildness tonight.
I?m drunk right now.
Saurka. Geisha mixed drink. Large pot of saki.
That?s all I have to say about thatljatl.
When on way home Robert and Will made a jokej about SPUNK ON MY TRUNK, or upside my trunk, something.
I was singing that stupid Balck Eyed Peas song HUMPS ? jui8nk in my [...]
admin | February 8, 2006
I feel like in some ways I've been censoring my blog. I try sometimes to not say things I want to say for fear my MOM will read this or for fear I will hurt somebody's feelings. This is one of those blogs I sort of feel like I might get lashback, but I WANT [...]
admin | February 4, 2006
This is Robert and Jade this morning. Oh, and Bear, Amber's dog.
Too sweet and cute.
Heh, check out Robert's morning-mohawk. Hee.
Aren't they cuuuuuute?
Will and I are going to see Brokeback Mountain tonight. Maybe he and I will have some romantic time together, since the last few nights have been ro-man-teek time with Robert.
Robert and [...]
admin | February 4, 2006
Robert helped me become the person I am today. Will added to that in more recent years. They make me want to be a better person.
Robert loved me before I became the goddess I am today. He loved me during very dark days, some of which he caused, most of which he pulled me out [...]
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