admin | May 31, 2005
Sigh. So I am clicking around blogs today ? I already wrote one blog about this subject today ? and I am feeling like I was run over, emotionally, reading all of these young women?s blogs. ED ? Eating Disorders ? seem to be almost ?cool? now ? some of the sites are tout themselves [...]
admin | May 31, 2005
There are “Thinspiration” websites and journals out there. Something that did not surprise me, but of course made me sad.
I read this woman's comment - at this link and it made me cry because it reminded me of the old Heather and I just wanted to grab her and give her a hug and tell her [...]
admin | May 30, 2005
I had a very interesting and loooong holiday weekend.
Mostly Will and Robert got a lot done in the yard and the garage. We get one step closer to having a well put together suburban dream of a lovely home every weekend (our quirky version of a “dream” to be sure)? but there are MANY weekends of [...]
admin | May 27, 2005
Guess, what I CAN PUT PHOTOS IN HERE - I just didn't KNOW it!!! Oy.
I still am getting a new blogger tho - with more features. So there.
So, this is a typical Sunday at my house. Robert in his bed, the animals flocking and some form of female snuggling - either me or Jade usually - [...]
admin | May 26, 2005
Oh my GOD am I having a BAD menstrual cycle. When it?s a little late, JEEZ it is bad when it finally shows up. Yesterday was the first day, so I was ok, but today FRIGGIN A this shit is painful.
Anyway, I will be spending most of my day sitting or laying with a [...]
admin | May 25, 2005
I was pondering more about the things Robert and I have been through as a couple after my earlier blog. Thoughts of him have been with me all day, nonstop.
As I said, Robert and I have been together since I was 18 and he was 19. We are 35 and 36 now. Now really let [...]
admin | May 25, 2005
Today was my first real full training session with my trainer. I am so proud of myself, I did FORTY MINUTES of cardio!!! It wasn?t all at once. I did ten on the heart trainer (that thing kicks my ASS) and then immediately went over and did twenty on the treadmill and then I did a bunch [...]
admin | May 21, 2005
I went to the Farmer?s Market again with Jade today. Got a couple more plants for my plant bed in the front yard. Got some fruit (melon) and veggies (tomatos, lettuce) and baked goods (but ze French girl waz not zer ? MERD!) and headed home. I stopped at a yard sale and grabbed an [...]
admin | May 20, 2005
Well, I?ve gone and done it. The step has been taken and now that I?ve taken a tiny step forward, I might as well continue to take steps. I am officially medicated. Yup, ol? crazy Heather, with her ?panic attacks.?
I had been trying to avoid medication. I took steps to try to anyway. I [...]
admin | May 20, 2005
Jade is home sick today. I had to cancel my lunch with Brenda. She was like, ?Yeah, I?ve been there.? She?s got kids, too.
Jade did very well at her flute last night during the concert. She was so good that at first I thought the cd was too loud or something. She has a Harry [...]
admin | May 19, 2005
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admin | May 18, 2005
I included this Anais Nin quote a couple of blogs ago:
“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.”
I want to say that I DO [...]
admin | May 18, 2005
When people say they respect your decision, but they don?t have to embrace it, what does that mean? This has been said to me on more than one occasion since my lifestyle change.
If I were a lesbian and in a committed relationship with a woman and some of my friends said to me, ?We respect [...]
admin | May 18, 2005
Ok, so I admit, I thought joining a gym would mean I would be constantly reminded of the movie ?Dodgeball? and that there would be ultra-tan hard-bodies who wouldn?t give me the time of day. The truth is that so far, I?ve only had very positive experiences.
There are a range of sizes and ability levels [...]
admin | May 18, 2005
Daily Overview for May 18, 2005
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Quickie:Sometimes you just gotta go with your gut. Act on instinct, and figure out the fine print later.Overview:One-to-one relationships have got to be the most wonderful thing on the planet. At the moment, however, they're also the trickiest — in your case, anyway. Be prepared for anything and [...]
admin | May 17, 2005
I had some interestingly appropriate horoscopes today.
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Daily Overview for May 17, 2005
Quickie:Someone's not telling the whole truth about their motivations. Dig deep for the real reason. (I won't be digging deep anymore with the “someones” - I'll just cope, thank you)Overview:You know all about 'pushing the envelope,' 'making waves' and all those other crazy [...]
admin | May 17, 2005
I?m back from bellydancing. I loved it! Just like I knew I would J
I got there early and meandered about the gym a bit. I didn?t want to do any crunches and junk because my stomach is still pretty sore from yesterday and I?ll be seeing the trainer again tomorrow, but what I did do [...]
admin | May 16, 2005
?And players only love you when their playin?
Of course that?s a line from a Fleetwood Mac song which I happen to be listening to right now. The words fit some of what I?m feeling.
Anyway, I had my workout session today with personal trainer Thomas, who is a very attractive and muscular (but not all bulgy [...]
admin | May 16, 2005
It's officially Monday, but I haven't slept yet, so it doesn't count for me ;)
Today was pretty great. Amber and Adam arrived safely last night and Amber cut Jade and Will?s hair today. It?s the best haircut Will has had since I?ve known him, no lie, I?m glad Amber found something she enjoys and [...]
admin | May 14, 2005
Whew, it?s pretty hot outside when you?re digging and pouring rocks. We even found a little snake and put him in the woods. He didn?t look poisonous. Hope he catches lots of bugs.
Robert looks so good today, all tan and his legs are so sexy!!! YOW! He saw the personal trainer today for his orientation [...]
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