Posted By admin on October 15, 2003

Sometimes being a Goddess and keeping stress into perspective is difficult when it seems like my life is crashing down around my ears.

Finding out the house we?ve been renting for four years is up for sale and trying to buy a house in a market that is hostile to the buyers has been so stressful, thank goodness for my friend Cindy who works at Dehanas Realty?I probably would have stroked out by now if not for her.  We are getting a nice house.  We are glad to have found one available!

I have been having actual PHYSICAL manifestations of this stress and every time I think it?s going to subside something else happens?Jade gets sick?Amber tries to jump out of the truck during and argument with her?the last time I had this much stress was when I was a teenager and found out I was pregnant.  That is the last time I remember being this physically affected by stress.  Insomnia, trouble swallowing, fatigue, lethargy, swollen legs, right-sided headaches, crying jags, acne, abscessed tooth (has to be pulled next week) nausea ? man sometimes it?s so bad I wish I would just THROW UP ALREADY!!!

The doctor wanted to give me sleeping pills?ahhh a nice deeeeeep sleep would be nice, but I didn?t want the pills.  I?m afraid of sleeping pills.

The time to get out of the house has been short.  The time to come up with the money for the closing has been short.  The time to pack, get sick, clean and everything else has been so short.

Poor little Jade and her horrible cough.  Poor Jackie had me as her matron of honor for her wedding (which was JUST BEAUTIFUL) during all of this and I couldn?t focus on her like I would have liked. 

Mostly I just want to sleep.

I know it will get better.  I know it will work out in the end, but right now I think I?d be happy if I could just vomit and get it over with.

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