admin | July 31, 2003
I can?t seem to keep them general enough to keep from hurting people or making them feel naked. Like a child sometimes I don?t know what is best for myself or others.
In revealing my own nakedness, when I?m in an emotional fugue I sometimes reveal the personal details of others, and that isn?t fair.
Once I [...]
admin | July 31, 2003
It?s late. But I?m full of emotions and have to write.
I sit here, at this computer and tell all of you what is in my heart. I pour it out and sometimes I tell more than makes Robert comfortable. Robert likes his privacy. I am more of a tell-all. But he always forgives me.
Robert, why [...]
admin | July 30, 2003
I went through a large box of photos with Will last night. They were mostly of his children when they were small and his ex-wife.
Easter pictures - small children dressed in pastel colors hunting for decorated eggs, there were several sets of these with the children at various ages. They looked so much like family [...]
admin | July 29, 2003
When I was a child I had an idea of what I thought was an ideal life: A boy. A wedding. A beautiful dress. A family. In that order. The end.
I had no idea that I would get in the way of my own dreams of happiness because of how much I disliked myself.
It?s funny, [...]
admin | July 23, 2003
I like to torment myself. I like to feel emotions to the point of being overwhelmed by them?like a drug I am addicted to, emotion is my fix. Particularly that which causes me pain is most intriguing to me. It also creates the most art and writing from me. It also teaches me the most [...]
admin | July 18, 2003
You?ve heard it, “VERB: It's What You Do.?
Maybe with this VERB it?s WHO you do.
www.urbandictionary.com has four definitions added to it and the concensus is that a Booty call is more or less:
Booty Call: (Boo-tee Cawl) ? 1) When a person visits you, or you visit a person solely for the purpose of sexual gratification. [...]
admin | July 14, 2003
Okay, so I?m at the movie theatre and I smuggled in a little candy in my purse because the prices in there are so high. I have this internal quandary?a battle if you will?about doing such things.
Am I cheating the movie theatre that charges upwards of $3.00 for candy you can get at CVS [...]
admin | July 10, 2003
It?s pretty late?or, it?s pretty early, depending on how you look at it.
Robert is sound asleep in post-coital bliss and I am having my half-hour adrenaline rush, which I decided to spend writing into my blog.
There is something that is a common theme for men that love me ? they never get enough sleep. I [...]
admin | July 6, 2003
There are times that it becomes so clear to me just how far I?ve come since the days I was a teen girl who could barely look at herself in the mirror.
I am a much more confident person. I feel capable of so many things. I know that I will be a successful artist, if [...]
admin | July 1, 2003
I had my ?Midsummer Night?s Dream? party Saturday night with my lovely co-host Jackie ? aka AIR ? and our sexy little Imps ? Robert (Fire), Will (Earth), Aaron (Water).
The party was a big success, though the tables outside didn?t get utilized much and the yard looked gorgeous, everybody seemed to hang inside. Some folks [...]
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